When we stay in situations that are challenging or toxic for too long it has a profound impact on our energetic field. Sometimes we are aware that we don’t feel like ourselves and more often the people who are in our lives that love us will let us know that we are not showing up in the fullness of who we are.
Holding the awareness that we are energetic beings provides valuable insight as to what is happening in our energetic field and why we may feel so different. There are often ‘parts’ of ourselves (energy) that we give up or have stolen from us to survive a situation. Sometimes we will even take energy on that is not ours. And this has long lasting effects on how we feel and also on the quality of our life.
Many moons ago, I was in a very toxic situation at work. On paper the job looked amazing. I was to head a large team running exciting change management programs across an organisation. The work would (on paper) be very rewarding. My team contained very smart people who were chosen for particular areas of expertise and seemed as excited about the job as I was. What could go wrong? The issue would become clear later – my boss was a narcissist. I was also a very different person back then. I stayed in the job way too long (I would never do this now). There was a large part of me that was determined to make it work regardless of the impact that it had on me (again something I would never do now). And the situation did have a profound impact. My health suffered and I also started to feel differently within myself and also about myself. I knew I was losing part of myself to this situation, but I did not have a deep understanding of what was happening energetically.
Now I know why I attracted this situation. It had a very powerful impact on me and helped me understand my own energetic field in a deeper way. This eventually led to many blessings. What I want to share here is what happened when I was ready to heal from the situation. And in particular the powerful impact that a healing session had on me which supported me in reclaiming and realigning my energy.
There is a powerful shamanic practice for handing back energy that is not ours and calling back energy that is ours after we have been through a challenging or toxic situation. During this type of shamanic healing session, I was asked what energy I wanted to call back to myself. Specifically I was asked what energy did I feel had been stolen or I had given away? At this point in the healing session, I was in a very slow brainwave state, completely relaxed and energetically very open. Instantly I said “my boss has stolen my joy and I want to call the energy of JOY back to me. This is part of my soul’s energy and I want it back”.
At that moment I felt a tremendous amount of energy filling my field and filling my heart. My whole field dissolved into the energy of Joy. There are no words that will adequately describe what I felt. The closest way I can describe it is – I became the energy of Joy and I could feel a big surge of energy returning to me. The session continued and I continued to go deeper into this healing. When the healer asked me what was happening for me I said that “I was a rainbow” and this was exactly what was happening for me. My energy had aligned itself with its true frequency – which is Rainbow Energy. This was my first real experience of experiencing the energy of my soul in such a tangible way. I was to later learn that ‘Rainbow Energy’ is a particular frequency of a group of souls that have incarnated on the planet. One of my teachers is also a ‘Rainbow’. There are many Rainbows being born at this time. At that time, there were less that had chosen to incarnate. In a sense we were testing the water and leading the way. Following the session my life force energy increased and most importantly I was able to ACCESS MY JOY AGAIN. To me JOY is a big part of how I show up in the world and it is really important to me. It is important to me to be able to access this and drop into this state as much as possible. Now it is even more important to me as I know what it is like to move through life without being able to access this fundamental part of my own energy.
It is important after we have been through a challenging or traumatic situation to reflect upon what impact this may have had on our energetic field. We can ask ourselves the following questions. Do I feel like there are any parts of me that I have given up or have been stolen from me (energetically)? Or is there anything I have taken on (energy, beliefs etc) that are not mine or are not helpful as part of going through this situation? By reflecting on this we can reflect on what we need to do to integrate our energy and realign it. It also assists with integrating the lesson, so we don’t have to repeat the situation. Shamanic Energy Healing for Reclaiming Lost Parts of ourselves is a beautiful way to support this healing process. If this resonates with you and you would like to experience a Shamanic Energy Healing Session, you can read more about it here - https://www.thejuicyeffect.com/energy-healing.